I write to you out of the ultimate frustration right now. I did not run yesterday (I did go on an amazing date where we walked a lot!). I am at my moms now. Today I had to do a minimum of 5 km to stay on target with my goal that ends in 2 more days. I put my shoes on. I turn on the treadmill. I start running. I set the treadmill to 35 minutes aiming to run 6 km. Great time, 1 km im and I’m less than 6 minutes in, and every time I checked the pace on my iPod I was staying within a high 5 to low 6 minute per km pace.
3.41 km later, the entire treadmill shuts down. Can’t turn it back on, can’t do anything. This is not a neighborhood I feel safe running outside (plus it is HOT), so I have settled, sitting here, frustrated, sweaty, and upset. In 22 minutes I did 3.41 km according to my iPod. I think another 1.6 km in 8 minutes could have had been attainable. Running at 4.5 to 5 mph, I was picking up the speed.
I am very upset now. I wanted so badly to run 5 km straight. I wanted this for myself. I needed this machine to show me I can do 5 km straight. I needed this to helped me really push myself when I’m back home and running outdoors.
For me, it’s all mental. I know I stop because I can. I know I stop because I run at different speeds outside. I know I stop. I needed this today so I could know that I don’t need to stop.
I am soooooooo utterly disappointed right now.
2.5 days left, 12.5 km to go…
I hope to write again before the end of the day with a success story of a 3 km run when I get back home… Hopefully the weather outside cools down.
Thanks for reading!
– Diana Mach